Tarot

All this talk and turmoil and noise and movement and desire is outside the veil; inside the veil is silence and calm and peace.

~Abu Yazid Al'Bistami


Never really been into tarot cards all that much until I came across these cards by Osho. They have the most beautiful illustrations, and every time I've done a reading they seem to hit everything on the nose. So, once and a while I'll pull them out and see what comes up. I enjoy doing readings on friends as well...it all in good fun. My leading card today was Letting Go. Hmmm...very interesting. I feel as if I let go anymore I just might disappear. But, I understand where this card is coming from. Its more than an external letting go of material things, and identifications...but, also a shedding of my skin so to speak...a shedding of patterns and defense mechanisms.

I practiced at home today due to the fact that my practice group decided to take Wednesday's off. Took my time moving methodically...moving with intention. What a delight it was. I addressed several imbalances that have come about doing my best to be fully present in each posture not slipping into auto-pilot. It was nice...thoroughly enjoyed myself...feeling no need to rush or grasp. Sooooooo nice.

"The distinction is subtle, but it is the same distinction as between the mind and the heart, between logic and love, or even more appropriate, between prose and poetry.
A destination is a clear-cut thing; direction is intuitive. A destination is something outside you, more like a thing. A direction is an inner feeling; not an object, but your very subjectivity. You can feel direction, you cannot know it. You can know the destination, you cannot feel it. Destination is in the future. Once decided, you start manipulating your life toward it, steering your life toward it.
How can you decide the future? Who are you to decide the unknown? How is it possible to fix the future? Future is that which is not known yet. Future is open possibility. By your fixing a destination your future is no longer a future, because it is no longer open...
When you decide a destination, it is the past that decides. You kill the future--then you go on repeating your past, maybe a little modified, a little changed here and there according to your comfort, convenience. Repainted, renovated, but still it comes out of the past...
Direction is something alive, in the moment. It knows nothing of the future, it knows nothing of the past, but it throbs, pulsates, here and now." ~Osho


So...I have taken a bit of a risk...well...actually I have taken some tiny ones before hand...you know...to test the waters...before taking the plunge. Its funny...and scary...but going down this road takes a huge amount of trust...call me crazy...and maybe I have gone crazy...but this has been a whole new way of thinking for me. Well...actually...I have learned these concepts...and talked about them...thought about them...but to truly apply them is a whole other story...right? I mean...that's the part that makes your stomach drop. But, I have found once I keep that winding tape in my mind calm and see it for what it is...and go with my gut...It feels good...Like with anything...moving forward...its gonna take practice.

Speaking of practice...what can I say really? What can I say that I haven't said before...I arrive to my mat every morning just wanting to connect...plug in...Its funny how each posture only lasts 5 breaths...what an opportunity not to get attached to any one asana...and just flow with each connecting movement. No need to get stuck on a particular struggle of a certain posture...for you have to keep moving forward...connecting...plugging in...breathing. And, to know that what your presented with this day...or each moment is where you need to be...to feel...to become more in tune...and come to realize who we really are...in the simplest most basic sense. Yes...people want to know and stress such importance of what 'posture' I am on...or...what 'series' I am doing...and its no big deal really...for others to ask...but, I continue to be blown away by something deeper...that has shifted inside of me. Really, I have come to know that the invisible parts we dabble with in this practice is where the power is...and wow!! All I can say is...Incredible! Peace.

Drop the Mind

Drop the mind that thinks in prose;
revive another kind of mind that thinks in poetry.
Put aside all your expertise in syllogism;
let songs be your way of life.
Move from intellect to intuition,
from the head to the heart,
because the heart is closer to the mysteries.

~Osho

I think about all the times that my head talked me out of something...That part that lives in the past...the pains and filters of former experiences that take us out of the present moment...I realize that I haven't fully grasped what this means for me and my life...but I do know that there is a way of living for me from this point forward that will be forever changed...no turning back...Also, the fact that I don't have everything planned out...and not knowing what's coming next gives me the space to be open to the possibilities to feel something instead of relying on what the externals expect from me...The more I have connected to this universe inside it has allowed me to truly connect with others on a deeper level...by passing superficiality...and beyond that I have experienced such a deep sense of gratitude for all the blessings that have come into my life no matter how big or how small...its all good...even the "bad"...whatever that is. So...on my day off from practice I'm gonna sit with this for a while. Peace.

Silence

To know means to be silent, utterly silent,
so you can hear the still, small voice within.
To know means to drop the mind.
When you are absolutely still,
unmoving, nothing wavers in you,
the doors open.
You are part of this mysterious existence.
You know it by becoming part of it,
by becoming a participant in it.
That is knowing.

~Osho

Head, Heart, and Being

"When the body functions spontaneously, that is called instinct. When the soul functions spontaneously, that is called intuition. They are alike and yet far away from each other. Instinct is of the body--the gross; and intuition is of the soul--the subtle. And between the two is the mind, the expert, which never functions spontaneously. Mind means knowledge. Knowledge can never be spontaneous. Instinct is deeper than intellect and intuition is higher than intellect. Both are beyond the intellect, and both are good."
~Osho


This week I've had some interesting experiences...ever since deepening my backbend... After practice I have my normal routine...chat a bit...drink some chai & coconut water...go home shower...get ready for my day. But, I've been having some tremors...like my hands start to shake a bit. So...I asked someone about it...who I trust...and he seemed to think that my nervous system is being stimulated...Huh?...I'll say...I'm just worried I'm about to rocket to the moon or something...Well...I guess that wouldn't be so bad...

Went into town today with a friend and picked up a book about intuition...by Osho...Ever since coming here I've had some interesting moments of clarity...its almost scary...like how to handle it...I'm starting this interesting path of learning how to trust it...and go with it...we'll see what happens. Peace.

Only Truth Can Liberate You

Only Truth Can Liberate You

I cannot liberate you, nobody can liberate you.
Only truth can liberate you.
And the truth has to be seen by you.

I may be seeing it.
I may be telling it to you.
In a thousand and one ways
I may be showering it upon you,
but that is useless if you are not open,
If your pot is upside down,
If you are not listening.

(Excerpted from Come Follow To You ~ Osho)

~So...I have one question...Can lightening strike twice in the same place? Just wondering... Peace.

Horoscope in OSHO Times Magazine
Virgo June 2007
Endings and new beginnings are in the cards this month as you are inspired to take a quantum leap into unknown dimensions and opportunities. Tremendous trust arising with in allows you to take a leap into the future without any fear to preparation. You have nothing worthwhile to lose and that which can be taken from you is not worth keeping anyway. Your inner treasure is your trust in life, your freedom and your innocence; that remains with you despite changes of any kind. Trust your intuition.