One Step at a Time

Don't go outside your house to see the flowers.
My friend, don't bother with that excursion.
Inside your body there are flowers.
One flower has a thousand petals.
That will do for a place to sit.
Sitting there you will have a glimpse of beauty
inside the body and out of it,
before gardens and after gardens.

~Kabir


Feeling a bit better. Practicing acceptance. Today was my primary series day, and it was strange, I felt as light as air, that it being pretty close to the new moon it seemed a bit unusual. However, I get an inkling that it had to do with many of the feelings that have been coursing through me, and today I was especially connected to my inner body. Observing, watching...trying not to get too caught up in the waves of negative emotion. During these times I have a tendency to really withdrawal. I know people around me sense something is wrong but I prefer not to speak, or talk about it. Because sometimes I don't even know what to make of it. And, if I sit and analyze, it will just put me all up in my head, which isn't really the best place for me. The stories that get conjured up there...its all craziness. If anything, I've learned that its the false part of ourselves that gets hurt...and I'm on the path to recognizing that.

I'm still working out this overseas teaching gig. Not sure how long it will be for and such. We are still in talks...getting some type of platform established. If anything, I'm excited about the prospect of immersing myself into teaching again. After India, I have taken the time to soak and marinate what was brought forth in Mysore...and I feel more than ever that I want to give and be of service. Observing and assisting others on the road to transformation is unbelievably inspiring...

Along with that, I have ideas that I will be bringing forward here at home. I've picked up several classes...and, I've had several former students urge me to rent a room somewhere and get something started. If I do this, its gonna be a simple endeavor...focused on the journey of the practice...nothing more nothing less. More than ever, I've realized its the practice that is the true teacher...and, I'm there to cultivate a space for that...we'll see how it goes...however, I'm gonna take it one step at a time...