"You should not be practicing to have a 'good' practice, but instead to keep steadiness within yourself. Practice happily regardless of whether it is 'good' or not. Sometimes some postures will not be possible, but when you accept the good and the bad and everything becomes equal for you, that is yoga."
- R. Sharath Jois
Burnt To Ash
"All Inquiry is meant for one purpose; to take you experientially into the unknown as efficiently as possible. Once you get there, simply be still because inquiry has delivered you to its destination. The rest is up to Grace. Do not hold onto any knowledge that comes your way. Even the greatest revelations much not be clung to, or you will end up with a head full of memories and a heart empty of substance. The truth is ever new, existing only in the now. The highest truth is beyond knowledge and experience. It is beyond time and space, and beyond beingness, consciousness, and oneness. Just remember that all direct path techniques are meant simply to undermine, to cut away, the one who is performing them. No matter what spiritual path you've walked or what teachings you've followed, they must lead you back to no path and no teaching. A true teaching is like a blazing fire that consumes the itself. The teaching must not only consume you, but consume itself as well. All must be burned to ash, and then the ash must be burned. The, and only then, is the Ultimate realized. True Enlightenment destroys enlightenment. As long as you can refer back to yourself and say, 'I'm enlightened', you not. Enlightenment is authentic only when there is no one left to be enlightened. Even to say 'I am nobody', is one too many. There's a point when you intuitively realize that to be Free you have to give up your attachment to Freedom. You have to quit asking yourself: Is it still there? Am I okay? You have to decide to never look over your shoulder again to see if you're free or if others know you're free. You just have to let yourself burn there - no matter what. This isn't something I can help you with. I can tell you what you need to do, but you have to do it. In the beginning, teachers can help a lot. But the deeper you go, all they can do is point, and clarify, and tell you what you need to do. Only you can take this step. Nobody can push you in to this place."
There are many things worth living for, a few things worth dying for, and nothing worth killing for. ~ Tom Robbins In the last several days ...
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"Life will break you. Nobody can protect you from that, and living alone won't either, for solitude will also break you with its yearning. You have to love. You have to feel. It is the reason you are here on earth. You are here to risk your heart. You are here to be swallowed up. And when it happens that you are broken, or betrayed, or left, or hurt, or death brushes near, let yourself sit by an apple tree and listen to the apples falling all around you in heaps, wasting their sweetness. Tell yourself you tasted as many as you could."
Sorry for my emails. Well sometimes, I am questioning my own sanity. Zee… mystic or schizophrenic? Hmm, a bit of both I guess! This is the state of true awakening that is still in the process. I put these words, here on your blog, in order to help others who may come to the similar situation.
Factors that trigger both schizophrenic breaks and kundalini awakenings include circumstances of impossible dilemmas, double-binds, and avoidance/attraction etc... My mind has created this situation by mapping bloggers to the people that I know and that I see during day - at home, work, transit etc… It is more then 2 years that this “mapping” goes on. I have created impossible dilemmas of “who is who” and “what they want from me”. My mind has found million different reasons and answers to that questions (no bother to list them here)…
Being in this self-created situation so far I couldn’t proceed in a logical-prefrontal manner. I forced myself to interpret the blogger’s posts and comments in accordance with my real life occurrences. Doing that I experienced angst, perplexity and frustration that were visible to many bloggers such as Inside Owl, Boodiba, DonutsZenMom, Ursula etc. Since my energy is not utilized in a normal fashion it boiled up and lead to the energies of anger and fight. But that was only “visible” in the blog world. In my “inner” world, having no resolution to this, my energy basically kick off via multiple kundalini eruptions (breakthroughs ) as well as some breakdowns, up to the point of real physical pain…
Zen koans, of course operate in a similar fashion, until the normal rational thinking process stops, leading to the overload of the nervous system and the sudden a-ha moment. That process is closely monitor and guided my Zen Master. Unfortunately I have no one to guide me so this comment is an attempt to establish my own guidance. I could write the book about unbelievable synchronicities between my real and the blog world. But I take that of no real value…
Until that time comes when the Kundalini permanently rewires my body-mind and release the stored tension of my physical body I will stay away from the blog-world. That is my resolution for 2010. I think my decision shows that my mystical side is greater then my schizophrenic one. My physical/mental/emotional and spiritual development is high enough to handle the kundalini nightmares. I apologise for my most-of-the-time unbelievable comments. Also, I use this opportunity to apologise to other bloggers too.
One of my favorite teachers of all time. I had the privileged of meet him about 5-6 years back. A gifted teacher with a good sense of comedic timing, who I will never forget. Thx for sharing.
3 Insightful Comments:
Laruga,
Sorry for my emails. Well sometimes, I am questioning my own sanity. Zee… mystic or schizophrenic? Hmm, a bit of both I guess! This is the state of true awakening that is still in the process. I put these words, here on your blog, in order to help others who may come to the similar situation.
Factors that trigger both schizophrenic breaks and kundalini awakenings include circumstances of impossible dilemmas, double-binds, and avoidance/attraction etc... My mind has created this situation by mapping bloggers to the people that I know and that I see during day - at home, work, transit etc… It is more then 2 years that this “mapping” goes on. I have created impossible dilemmas of “who is who” and “what they want from me”. My mind has found million different reasons and answers to that questions (no bother to list them here)…
Being in this self-created situation so far I couldn’t proceed in a logical-prefrontal manner. I forced myself to interpret the blogger’s posts and comments in accordance with my real life occurrences. Doing that I experienced angst, perplexity and frustration that were visible to many bloggers such as Inside Owl, Boodiba, DonutsZenMom, Ursula etc. Since my energy is not utilized in a normal fashion it boiled up and lead to the energies of anger and fight. But that was only “visible” in the blog world. In my “inner” world, having no resolution to this, my energy basically kick off via multiple kundalini eruptions (breakthroughs ) as well as some breakdowns, up to the point of real physical pain…
Zen koans, of course operate in a similar fashion, until the normal rational thinking process stops, leading to the overload of the nervous system and the sudden a-ha moment. That process is closely monitor and guided my Zen Master. Unfortunately I have no one to guide me so this comment is an attempt to establish my own guidance. I could write the book about unbelievable synchronicities between my real and the blog world. But I take that of no real value…
Until that time comes when the Kundalini permanently rewires my body-mind and release the stored tension of my physical body I will stay away from the blog-world. That is my resolution for 2010. I think my decision shows that my mystical side is greater then my schizophrenic one. My physical/mental/emotional and spiritual development is high enough to handle the kundalini nightmares. I apologise for my most-of-the-time unbelievable comments. Also, I use this opportunity to apologise to other bloggers too.
Happy New Year !!!
Zee
Thank you.
:-)
One of my favorite teachers of all time. I had the privileged of meet him about 5-6 years back. A gifted teacher with a good sense of comedic timing, who I will never forget. Thx for sharing.
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