Last Night in Taiwan

"What will they think of me?" --Must be put aside for bliss.

~ Joseph Campbell

I'm about ready to call it a night. So tired. My last night. My very last night in Taiwan, after nearly 6 months. Wow. It went by incredibly fast. Too fast.

Tomorrow, I'm headed for Bangkok, Thailand.

I'm sure you can guess where my next stop will be...

Quotes from Micheal Beckwith

Wisdom From Emerson

Shelter

Great Film. Great eye candy too. Hahaha.

A Charlie Brown Christmas

Happy Holidays

The sign of Christmas
is a Star
A Light in darkness.
See it not outside yourself
but shining in
the Heaven within


~ A Course in Miracles

Wishing everyone a blessed holiday!

The picture above is a wild Taiwan poinsettia. They were everywhere in route to Alishan. Beautiful!

Peace on Earth, and good will to all.

xoxoxoxoxoxox

A Reflection

If you want resurrection, you must have crucifixion.

~ Joseph Campbell

I love how Caroline Myss illustrates the important process of reflection, contemplation, discipline, and devotion. Yeah. Its work. But, work well worth the effort. A cycle that brings us back home. I have easily tired of the masks I've thrust upon myself. Can't blame anyone for it. It is my own responsibility to take a hard look and realize the higher calling. There have been times I've denied it. There have been times I looked the other way. However, it takes too much energy to deny what is True.

The past year has broke my heart open on numerous occasions. Too many to count. Having one's heart broken, no matter the cause, is a good thing. Whether it's the parting ways of two who felt deep love, or simply being a witness to an act of kindness. It gives pause to what is real within. Whenever I get caught up in the game of life, I do my best to remember the constant that never changes. Never dies. This is where I will look for guidance. Before, I would look anywhere BUT. Crazy. I know. Hee, hee. I'm learning. Thankfully.

Deep in the madness of life. Thrust in the uncertainty. I anchor myself. As best I can.

Yesterday, I left Gangshan, a small town on the outskirts of Kaoshung, where I have been teaching for the past 5 weeks or so. What a miraculous group. From scratch, we blasted through the trails and tribulations of taking on an Ashtanga yoga practice. They expected alot out of me, and I did the same. Wow. We had many laughs too. Wonderful. Up and a way they flew, as they took hold of this transformational practice. Often, a class that was only allotted for 90 minutes, we would loose track of time, digging deep into the meaning behind it all, with my wonderful interpreter Tony, and easily 3 hours would pass by. How could this possibly be work? I feel blessed! Many times it brought me back to why I'm doing what I'm doing.

It tugged at my heart to leave the students, especially the couple who hosted me, Tony and Katie. What lights! So pure. So simple. In the end, before leaving, I tried to explain to them that the experience, and love extended toward me, was much more than I could have ever asked for. I expressed how honored and privileged I felt. Hahaha. They wouldn't hear of it. They felt they came away with more through the experience. Nope. I don't know how that could be possible. Let's just say we came to a draw. Hahahaha.

It was all I could do not to cry.

I taught them Ashtanga yoga. Little do they know, that they taught me about Love. What a labor of love it was. There is no better kind.

Honestly, I know nothing. Haha. Another great relief! And somehow, it all comes together.

East Coast

Shedding one's skin. The snake that cannot shed skin perishes. So do the spirits who are prevented from changing their opinions; they cease to be spirit.

~ Nietzsche

I spent the last couple days exploring the east coast of Taiwan. What beauty. The east side is far less populated in contrast to the west, where the majority of Taiwan's inhabitants reside. The reason, is the west has a larger plateau in relationship to the mountains, which make up most of the the island's interior. On the east side, the plateau is only a fraction in comparison. So, it makes for challenges in regards to transportation and development. Which I say, bravo! Why spoil it by building more roads and buildings. In addition, the coast gets plummeted during typhoon season. Most of the devastating storms enter the country from this side, which in turn, can be a challenge from time to time.

With all that being said, I truly fell in love with the east coast. Breathtaking views of the mountains and ocean are all around. My two favorite things coming together. On the particular day we were out, the waves from the Pacific were large and looming. The wind relentless. Powerful. Needless to say I lost my favorite scarf from the ravages of the wind. Poof! It slipped off my neck. Gone. In a blink of an eye, as we crossed the bridge to Sanstiantai Island. You talk about wind. The wind was so strong, I thought my eyelids were gonna rip off. I'm not joking.

The waves coming in were especially large. Scary and beautiful at the same time. I don't know what it is, but the ocean puts me into a trance. The bigger and scarier the wave, the more entranced. I kept wanting to step closer and closer. Feeling the clap and thunder, as each wave crashed a shore. How small I felt. How small and insignificant in comparison to the awe and wonder before me. I loved every minute of this feeling.

The group could have left me out there for hours, as they went about their day, and I would have been fully satisfied to sit and watch. Feeling one with each magnificent wave.

Do the thing you fear and the death of fear is certain.

~ Emerson

Always

Always, always, always, always, always do what you are afraid to do.

~ Emerson

I Rise

You may write me down in history
With your bitter, twisted lies,
You may trod me in the very dirt
But still, like dust, I'll rise.

Does my sassiness upset you?
Why are you beset with gloom?
'Cause I walk like I've got oil wells
Pumping in my living room.

Just like moons and like suns,
With the certainty of tides,
Just like hopes springing high,
Still I'll rise.

Did you want to see me broken?
Bowed head and lowered eyes?
Shoulders falling down like teardrops,
Weakened by my soulful cries?

Does my haughtiness offend you?
Don't you take it awful hard
'Cause I laugh like I've got gold mines
Diggin' in my own backyard.

You may shoot me with your words,
You may cut me with your eyes,
You may kill me with your hatefulness,
But still, like air, I'll rise.

Does my sexiness upset you?
Does it come as a surprise
That I dance like I've got diamonds
At the meeting of my thighs?

Out of the huts of history's shame
I rise
Up from a past that's rooted in pain
I rise
I'm a black ocean, leaping and wide,
Welling and swelling I bear in the tide.

Leaving behind nights of terror and fear
I rise
Into a daybreak that's wondrously clear
I rise
Bringing the gifts that my ancestors gave,
I am the dream and the hope of the slave.
I rise
I rise
I rise.


~ Maya Angelou

Closing the Gap

Follow your bliss. The heroic life is living the individual adventure.

~ Joseph Campbell

Closing the gap. Yes. The gap. The space that supposedly separates me from another person. An interesting thing to contemplate. No?

As I deepen into something new. Or maybe a better way to say it, is deepening into a new way of perceiving. Viewing. Living. Dunno. What I do know, is the importance that everyday relationships hold. As I connect to my own inner voice, I see how every contact I make is an opportunity to close the gap...so to speak.

Some of my greatest teachers have been those who left me feeling frustrated and hopeless, just as much, as those who have left me feeling a deep sense of awe and inspiration.

In the end, it all starts with what's inside of me. No more. No less. If we are truly one. Then why conceptualize it. Practicing what this oneness means is where the real juice is.

Yeah, of course it's easier said than done. But really, it becomes simple, through simple awareness. Slowing down the reaction time. Maybe not reacting at all. Viewing a situation for clearly what it is, instead of putting it through my own prejudicial filters.

Interesting to say the least.

More and more, I hear the call to begin directly applying the insights and awareness that come about on the mat, into daily life. Why else do it? I mean, what am I trying to build here? Build the ego? Or, build a deeper sense of who I am, and the connection that binds us together? I mean really? What does it come down to? When you strip EVERYTHING down to the basics?

For lack of a better word, something has clicked, but in the same breath I'm still absorbing a great deal.

The experience in Taiwan has been awesome, and exciting. But, not only because I've charted a new territory externally, but also because I've charted new territory internally. Or, I guess it really isn't new at all. Maybe I'm simply waking up to something that has always been there.

Patiently waiting.

Don't Look, Jump

Hit the delete button every time fear appears.

~ Wayne Dyer

I can do that? Just hit delete? SWEET!! Fear is gone.
Love the following quote by Tami Simon on starting Sounds True.
Came across it from Dhrumil. Can definitely relate. Good stuff.

People sometimes ask me if it took courage to start Sounds True. And the answer is no. What did take courage was to leave a situation (Swathmore College) that promised a lot of rewards that were meaningful to other people but not actually meaningful to me. It took courage because I had no idea what would happen or how my life would unfold. I risked losing the respect of my family, and I had no explanation for my actions. I knew I had to leave a situation that felt wrong to me, but I had no idea what would feel right.

~ Tami Simon, Founder of Sounds True

I think about what my yoga practice has brought into my life, and it definitely has allowed me to be more comfortable in uncomfortable situations. I can't say I've always approached uncomfortable situations with a state of grace. Hell no! But, I'm learning, and feel I'm organically headed in that direction. At least let's hope. Hahaha. Pray for me. :)

Nonetheless, and for lack of a better word, it simply takes practice. The more I face my insignificant little fears, and feel the love, it becomes easier to do. The lessons are everywhere. It's an embrace of being total in every situation. Having the courage and knowing that all is as it should be, all the while, walking through it.

The times I've done this, while in it, I felt as if I had lost my mind.

And well, thank God I did.

Let Go. Let it All Go at Once

And when the body starts to let go let it all go at once, not piece by piece, but like a whole bucket of stars dumped into the universe!

~ Sleater Kinney

Letting Go.

My theme for 2008. Hahaha. The theme comes at the end of the year. Guess I'm in a reflective mood.

It's cool though.

I like the analogy of a trapeze artist. You can't reach for the next swing, without letting go of the one you're on first...and...if you miss...big deal...there's always a net to catch, if you fall.

I've entered into something new, where I'm left to ponder... Is this my life? Okay. Sounds strange. But, I don't think I'm the one driving the bus.

Make sense?

There seems to be an intelligence behind everything. And, it feels better to simply line up to that intelligence. Why fight it? There's constant Joy trying to reach. That's why the wise say...Allow.

Allow things to flow.

Simple...no?

Ego likes complication.

When I feel like I've gotta have control, something is amiss. Dunno. Don't have all the answers. Isn't that a relief. The answers seem less and less important. Who cares. They're overrated. Why get hung up on them?

Learning. Practicing. Practicing what I learn. Oh yeah! Laughing. I gotta laugh at it all. But, let me just say. When I do line up. What a fucking release!! And, the craziness of it all...is nothing needed to be done.

NOTHING.

Wow!

'Come to the edge,' He said

They said, 'We are afraid.'

'Come to the edge,' He said

They came.

He pushed them ... and they flew.


~ Guillaume Apollinarie

Which brings me to the edge. I guess part of me has always been a bit edgy. I don't like limitations. I don't like to think within limitations. Dunno. Call me strange.

I guess you can say my yoga practice is a bit edgy. The performance of postures is meaningless. Striving for perfection is boring. Boring. With a capital B.

But, what really gets my juices flowing, is when I come to my edge. Yes. The edge. Then...

I let go.

An energy courses through like nothing I could have imagined or expected. The body. The instrument. Is laid aside. For, who I am is the force behind the movement.

This is who I am. This is real.

I could explode into nothingness...and, it would worth it.

Enthusiasm

Enthusiasm is one of the most powerful engines of success. When you do a thing, do it with all your might. Put your whole soul into it. Stamp it with your own personality. Be active, be energetic, be enthusiastic and faithful, and you will accomplish your object. Nothing great was ever achieved without enthusiasm.

~ Ralph Waldo Emerson

Enthusiasm. Sometimes, that's all it takes. Mr. Chow, my new friend and acquaintance has taught me all about it. Never have I met someone who exuded enthusiasm so fully, such as him. I'm sure there are others out there. Just haven't met them yet. Anyway, plain and simple, with enthusiasm, it vibrates an energy that, for sure, attracts magnificent things. But not only that, it comes with embracing ALL that is before you. No judgments. No expectations.

Pretty darn cool.

The times I have spent with Mr. Chow he consistently tells me...Ohh. I'm very lucky. So very, very lucky. Lucky. Then after that he will say. I'm happy. Very happy. Soo very happy. Happy. Then he'll look at me, and ask...Are you happy?

He says this every time I see him.

It's funny, because his energy is so infectious, and he extends such light and laughter, that naturally I say...Yes. I'm very happy. How could I not be? He has enough happiness for the two of us!

He's a wealthy business man that beyond making money obviously finds joy in entertaining others, and connecting with people. He chooses to drive an old Volvo, while his wife drives a high-end European export. He adores his family, and loves children, and somehow balances many things, with zest and passion, while radiating a smile from ear to ear.

Whether in business, or out an about, touring Taiwan, consistently, he emanates a constant enthusiasm. At first, I didn't know how to take it. But, then I had to ask myself what's my resistance to it? Once I got my answer. It's been good times all the way. I'm really learning something here.

Simply put, it's a fun experience being in the presence of someone who finds pleasure and excitement from the simplest of things to the most grand.

Coolness.

Images

If your knowledge of fire has been turned to certainty by words alone, then seek to be cooked by the fire itself. Don't abide in borrowed certainty. There is no real certainty until you burn; if you wish for this, sit down in the fire.

~ Rumi

Gotta give a plug to the highly talented photographer, Bryan Fenstermacher, out of Columbus, Ohio. He took the photos of Barack Obama I posted a couple months ago, as well as the ones above. You can learn more about him, and his work here.

Day Trip

You're packing a suitcase for a place none of us has been; a place that has to be believed to be seen.

~ U2

Two things. I'm a devil on wheels when haven't gotten enough sleep or enough to eat. You might as well call me Satan when this happens...hahahaha. Seriously.

Yesterday. I took a day trip to Alishan. One of the beautiful high mountain areas of Taiwan. As Mr. Chow says. If you haven't been to Alishan, you haven't been to Taiwan. So, I made sure I went and experienced. Beautiful. I love this island! Pictures will come later.

First we hung out in a quaint, little mountain town, and drank some of the locally grown organic tea from a local grower. I love the whole tea ceremony thing. I'd like to learn.

Then it was off to a coffee plantation. My second. We had to hike about an hour to get to it. With each step up the mountain, my blood sugar declined. I didn't eat breakfast, and the caffeine from the tea was wearing off. Not a good combo. However, once I made it up the summit, I felt good as I breathed in the clean mountain air. Took rest. Later though, my mood was souring. To make matters worse I kept judging myself. WTF's your problem? These were my words exactly. The hike back down didn't take as long. Afterward, we ventured to another area. Another hike.

It wasn't till we finally made our way to an awesome open air cafe, overlooking the deep Alishan valleys, near a lush tea plantation, that I had a proper meal. Finally the dark cloud lifted. Ahhh. This is all I needed. Ain't gonna do that again. Trekking up the mountains without proper food is craziness. How simple.

All in all, it was an awesome trip. So much to discover. I'm continually amazed and enchanted by this country.

Where There's Smoke

This discipline and rough treatment are a furnace to extract the silver from the dross. This testing purifies the gold by boiling he scum away.

~ Rumi

Where there's smoke. There's fire. Throw me in. I'm ready. Burn baby burn! As useless wants an desires burn into ash. I feel free. Freer than I thought possible. As the play, and the movement become all there is, an energy enters in, as everything I touch with my hands and see with my eyes makes no sense, compared the dance, as I beat my own drum.

I am burning. If anyone lacks tinder, let him set his rubbish ablaze with my fire.

~ Rumi